I am prone to give up before I start. No one can convince me I am a failure more than myself. If I can’t find a problem, I will create one in my head. My superpower is making something good seem bad in three seconds flat. I will focus on my weaknesses until I see nothing else.
Slowly, slowly, slowly I am learning that I cannot hate my weakness because it allows me to trust in God’s strength. As Paul pleaded for his affliction to be removed the Lord said:
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
-2 Corinthians 12:9
There has to be a good reason why God points out the weaknesses of His people all through scripture. God is perfect and the fact that His power can show up in people like me, who are weak, gives me a lot of hope. When I feel inadequate in the gifts God has given me, I am usually right because I am relying on myself. And when I focus on my fears instead of God’s power and strength working in me, I am setting myself up for failure and not seeking to glorify God.
It is impossible for me to overcome my fears on my own. God’s grace is sufficient for me. The only good that can come is the Spirit working through me. I am so thankful that I have the very presence of God within me, helping me to live how He wants and allowing me to be used for His glory.
Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.
Groanings too deep for words. Too deep for words. Words we don’t even know. Words we can’t imagine if we tried. That is what we have working for us. That is what we have covering our weakness. As we are incoherently crying out to God, we have the Spirit turning our rambling into perfectly logical requests that we would pray if we knew how.
With that kind of intercession, I have no idea why I am not asking God for more and relying more on prayer. I love what Ephesians 3:20 says: “God can do anything, you know.”
He covers our weakness. He makes good out of bad. His strength is more than enough for our fears. He works all things together for His glory. He doesn’t change and nothing moves Him. Our fears do not scare Him. He is unshakeable.
Let’s ask Him for more. Let’s ask Him to cover our fears, cover our weaknesses, and use us to serve Him in ways we can’t think of. Let’s ask Him for far more than we could ever imagine or guess or request in our wildest dreams.